I actually quit you Adobe

That's right. Actually quit. I summed up the balls of the design ages and nailed my thesis to the cathedral door and all of that. I even went so far as to uninstall all of it. Well on one machine at any rate. Adobe, I’ve quit you. I'm still scared though. And this is sad. I'm aware of that.

The fact of the matter is that in my old age I've taken to thinking about design in all sorts of high falutin' ways that didn't much matter before. When you're young(er), going to obviously live forever, drunk and partying a lot and full of optimism with a horizon of mainly imagined opportunity, you don't think about the politics of how you do things. However, recently I have.

It started with first deciding to not have any of my kids on Facebook because I didn't like the fact that a massive Internet company owns the images. Then it was more or less quitting Facebook altogether. Then I realised after using Sketch for a while and having to open Illustrator that not only are Adobe's interfaces anyeurism-inducing monuments to bloat and legacy software, but that one company had not just a global monopoly but an absolute chokehold on using a computer to create images. This flat out drove me old man, armchair yelling at the TV mad. So I quit. Going indie and all that. And we'll see how far I get, but its sadly exciting.

It’s also been a semi contrived exercise in creating constraints for my work. If I can't do it in Sketch, well, I guess I just won't do it - and if I can't find an example of it in Motion instead of After Effects, well, then I'll just have to actually work a little bit harder and be a proper designer about things. And that’s that.

I'm leaving you Adobe

Let me tell you about warp. That's right, warp. This amazing ability that Illustrator has where you can make a vector shape and then make a deformable mesh on top of it that you can tweak around and well, warp a bit. Sounds epic doesn't it? What an amazing feature they've come up with. For some sad, strange reason I had an obsession with the concept of not being able to do this, even though every time I've used the tool it was difficult and ended up looking like absolute shit anyhow. This is what it boils down to, Adobe throwing everything under the sun at you and wedging in heaps of loss aversion through the door and down your throat. I don't know how I will make this sort of psychedelic amazingness anymore, but it doesn't really matter

So I'm trying to leave you and it ain't going to be easy. Adobe, you've weaved your tentacles into my life in ways and formats that will be incredibly hard to shake. But I look forward to the challenge and to breaking free till one day I can make it without drowning in your bloat and effluence every time I have to make some sort of image or put some words on a picture.

But you've made it so hard to leave you. You've ingrained yourself everywhere in my life and in my consciousness. You've gone through my phone and who I've called and told me how to hold a fork. You've been with me through bad and good. We've cried together, lasted up all night with a half empty bottle of whiskey, tears and all the memories that go with that one Strokes album. You were there. You're now a verb because you are everywhere.

Part of breaking away is opening your eyes. I haven't opened InDesign in over a year. I haven't done any photo type thing to an actual image in over a year and even when I do, I only use some basic stuff. What you have to realise is that you don't really need all the bells and whistles and you don’t need one company dictating what the creative output of the planet is.

A love letter to terminal

I admit, its frivolous. But as a designer in these trying times, its a little to keep you going as they say.

There’s an app for it. There’s no need for me to do all the typing. I can click colourful little things and go on my merry way committing, pulling, pushing and that. But I choose to type. I choose from sick fascination to talk to the computer and this thing in the internet directly. I choose to learn its language.

I’m a designer and I love terminal.